Myself
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I'm learning a lot about myself being alone, and doing what I'm doing.
I'm not trying to be sexy. It's just my way of expressing myself when I move around.
My life motto is 'Do my best, so that I can't blame myself for anything.'
When I am myself, I am happy and have a good result.
I'm grateful to God for His bountiful gifts... He gave me courage and faith in myself.
I respect everybody, but at the same time, I carry myself with an aura that demands respect, too.
A lot of times when I ran, to be honest, I didn't know where I was in the race. So I always was looking up at the scoreboard to say, 'Just call my name to see where I am', because I tried to have such tunnel vision not to distract myself.
It's not vanity to feel you have a right to be beautiful. Women are taught to feel we're not good enough, that we must live up to someone else's standards. But my aim is to cherish myself as I am.
With age, you see people fail more. You see yourself fail more. How do you keep that fearlessness of a kid? You keep going. Luckily, I'm not afraid to make a fool of myself.
Whenever things go a bit sour in a job I'm doing, I always tell myself, 'You can do better than this'.
My parents instilled a really good work ethic from when I was little — if you want to have money to spend on holidays, you earn it. So I've always been someone who wanted to be able to survive by myself, but I think you have to let down the barriers a little bit — let other people in.
As an adolescent, I was painfully shy, withdrawn. I didn't really have the nerve to sing my songs on stage, and nobody else was doing them. I decided to do them in disguise so that I didn't have to actually go through the humiliation of going on stage and being myself.
I always want to think of myself as an underdog.
